We where so blessed!

We have had our ups and downs this year to be sure but we have been so blessed. Our best friend Amy and her wonderful daughter Amelia. They only had a day and a half but I would have settled for 30 minutes. I haven't seen them in over 3 years. We had an amazing time. Amelia, just like my girls, have grown so much over that time.

Ames looks 14 or 15 easy. It's so scary that our daughters are the age we were when we started making bad decisions out of anger and hurt and missing our dads. I pray these young ladies feel the love that surrounds them by everyone who mets them. They are amazing young ladies, kind, sweet, smart, funny, independent, creative, and caring. If they grow up to only half their potential it will be amazing.

I was also blessed by extra money this month. Between some money I received and all the over time I worked in the month of June, it was really sweet. Great timing. The universe does provide and in some mysterious ways.

I survived my first full Metro month as the dispatcher in charge without to many mistakes. In fact I think I did extremely well. I love what I do though and my job is a part of who I am and if I am not good at it I can't feel good about myself.

I have been missing people lately, my dad (died), my friends from SD, friends from CA,OR, and FL. I realized that even though missing them is sad, it is also a blessing to know and love these people enough to miss them. They are all a important part of me.

God Bless to everyone, I hope everyone is as blessed as me.

Time flies whether your having fun or not....

2010 has really kicked our ass. We lost my mother-in-law in Feb and I was hospitalized in March and my Grandma died at the end of March. We had to work nights, find a place to live and have our son and his g/f and 2 kids move in with us as we are looking for a place and while we where moving and all 3 of us were sick. Could barely function.

Through all of this, good things have happened. Good always balances out the bad whether we acknowledge it or not. Right now I am having such a hard time seing the good. I know it is there and for this second that will have to be good enough. It will have to be enough so that I can keep gettng from one day to another.

We are moved, but are still living out of boxes. Still can barely move through the place. Thats what happens when you lose 1020 square feet. We may have to live in boxes for as long as we stay here if we don't want to rent storage space.

The move has been great for the girls, I will say that. They have already become the social butterflies of the neighborhood and I get compliments on how well they behave. I keep wondering if they have the right kids? Just kidding.

Until next time, never sure when I will have internet or time to be on the internet or can even find the laptop since everyone disappears with it and my desktop isn't up, only the kids and only school work can be done on it. Internet school is way more strict than real school. Girls are excited about going back to public school. This has been a major bone of contention since I told them but they are finally on board with it. One more positive thing that has happened. New the good balanced the bad!

New Beginning

Well this is our last day in this house, hopefully. We don't know if we have a truck yet and I have to be to work at 2pm and Steve has to be at work at 8 pm and Joe has to be at work at 6 pm. It is now a little after 7am. I am going back to bed for half and hour and then up to pack the kitchen, bathrooms, pantry and all the linen closet. Oh yeah, my half of the room, Steve only did his side yesterday. He didn't get to much done, that is for sure.

Well instead of complaining and get a few zzzz's.

When one thing don't work out another always does.

Well the place I wanted wasn't on the same time frame as me. They wanted to wait until next week to approve me. I wanted to move out this weekend. We all work at night and will have to move during the day and try and sleep. It will be crazy for awhile, good thing I do crazy well!

My son, who just moved out here, started his job tonight. His g/f and her 6 year old boy and 5 month old girl will be here Tues. So now they need to get a place of their own. But things are going smoothly so I am quite happy.

I wish Lori was here to help us by givng us directions and keeping us organized but maybe she can phone it in! I miss my mom right now and even want to see her new dodge truck, even though she bought it knowing I hate dodge and she thought I would never talk to her again. Mom, does this mean you love your truck more than you love me? I am kidding I hope you and your truck are just as happy as me and my truck were. Oh I miss my truck, even if I don't need a truck for every day it would sure come in handy right now with moving. Oh well, better appreciate the Honda Accord since that's what I drive now.

Trying patience......

well not by choice but we have o choice in the matter. Found what I believe to be the perfect place, enough space, rooms, garage, and much cheaper rent and utility bills. Plus it is in Henderson. Just a jump on the freeway to work. Although I will miss the 12 min drive to work. Now it will be more like 30 but I can deal. Now if I just would hear back from the owner. Filled out the application last night. Woke at 6 this morning with this on my mind. Weird waking up when I am usually getting off work around this time.

Life is really good at the moment. Sure it has it's draw backs but overall it is really good. I am happy at work and like my new position. Still new enough ad will be for a long time that I will get to use my brain and learn something new every day or so.

Having Joe here isn't so bad. I am enjoying being with the boy again. He is a little whiny but then, would he be Joe if he didn't whine? He is very helpful around the house. He went grocery shopping with me yesterday and was a big help. He is the only one of my kids that don't ask for stuff at the store. I ask him if he wants anything and he always said no.

If this house doesn't turn out I do have a back up but we can't move in right away. I would have to wait until the 1st of the month. I don't love it as much as the one I want now. But it is everything I wanted and need, if a little small.

I feel kinda guilty that life is going this well. My grandmother just died and she was just burried on Sat. and my mother-in-law died last month but I decided that neither would want me to grieve, all though Carol would insist that I miss her, and believe me I do, besides they are both back with those they lost before them, children, parents, and their husbands. I think they may have the best of it and we are just very selfish in not wanting to let them go.

Pray I get this house please and that he lets me know this morning which way it goes. I am praying everyone has a great and wonderful day full of exciment of life and wonder at how it all comes about the way it is suppose to.

Still looking!

Someday soon I hope to be able to say I have found a new home.

today is a day to recharge

I got to go back to my home office last night. Was really happy to be back and weird all at the same time. It had been almost 15 days. My boss let me go back to dispatch last night and I was busy and loving it and Tops went down. It was down from 2 am to 7:30 when I left. I was suppose to work overtime but it got taken away. Easy come easy go I guess. I don't know why but I am taking full advantage and sleeping. Alreay had 3 short naps, now time for a longer one.

UPdate about moving: Wish I had something postive to report but I don't. Seen 2 places we would love but they are $200 more a month and we were doing this to save money but the places that are less just aren't that safe. No garages. Old homes.
Can I just say that I love my job, faults and all. I love what I do and I am really good at it. So thank you for that Lord!